It’s me again, I just wanted to say that I am aware that some of the items that I write about here are very in depth and often complex situations, such as body confidence.
There is no doubt in my mind that I will analyse the issues that I speak of in the future, and in doing so, will look at the impact my experiences have had on me in more detail.
At the moment, this is all new to me. Maybe I need to develop my ability to stay focused on one particular topic but my mind doesn’t work that way. It changes directions in a second and sometimes it never returns to the original starting point.
I can only apologise for this however, if I was to start a new post or add to a draft post on each individual topic/issue then it is highly likely I would never publish anything.
I only plan to write about my situation and appreciate that every one has there own unique set of circumstances and experiences but, emotion is a universal language. It doesn’t matter how much money you have, what type of car you drive or what your house is like you still have feelings and no doubt, you have concerns about your children the same as I do.
With some of the more complex issues that I may write about it is likely that I will return to them in later posts. I plan to revisit and delve deeper in to many subjects such as body confidence, feelings of being inadequate, grief, the potential impact of social media and many more.
My experience with my mental health is very much like a rollercoaster and I am not entirely sure how much is due to genuine issues and how much is purely down to my hormones. I cannot hide from the fact that my hormones do play a part in how I feel at certain times of the month. There are times where I will randomly start crying. This is something that has definitely been exacerbated by the arrival of my children.
Prior to having children I could happily watch TV and not shed a tear, even at Christmas time. I have been called heartless by other people for not crying during what they believe is a sad movie. If I am honest though in some of the sad scenarios in films, I watch them and think to myself well that was a stupid decision, why would you do that? What did you think was going to happen.
Do you know what I mean? Like people who close their eyes while riding bicycles before inevitably crashing. Who does that? I do not remember that being a recommended practice when I was learning to ride a bike. Another one that bugs me is when your watching a horror movie and the characters run upstairs to escape the killer rather than leaving the house and jumping in their car… but that may just be me.
I still do that with films but can I watch a John Lewis Christmas advert and not shed a tear? No. Can I see an animal charity advert and not cry? No.
Sorry, I am doing it again! Going off on a tangent that frankly does not make any sense but you cannot say that you have not been warned.
The point I am trying to make is that writing about my life is very much a learning curve for me. Much the same as parenting, we do not get handed a manual and everyone will experience different reactions and differing levels of support in their own journey. Your children will have different needs and no doubt different consequences to my children. That’s ok too.
The important thing to remember is you are doing your best and that is all that any of us can do. Stop comparing ourselves to other people and focus on ourselves.
If we can lend a helping to hand to another person along the way then great, but, if you are in a place where you feel overwhelmed with your own stuff then don’t feel obliged to try and help with someone else’s load. If the help is offered then please do not feel ashamed for accepting it.
It may be offered in many different ways but the main thing is you do what is best for you and your family…
and I am off again, so I think I am going to end this one here.
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