Where do I start this one. Government and politicians? They can go f*** themselves. GP’s? So can they. Pandemic? Celebrities? Yeah, they too can go and perform a self pleasuring act alone in a cupboard!! But the question was where do I start. Eeny meany miney ho…here we go!!
Step away from the keyboard Mumma and breathe…let’s start again shall we? I have been missing in action recently. There have been lots of things happening in my life.
Both the children were off school yesterday. My eldest was not ill however, he had convinced himself that he had the dreaded virus because some children in the school have tested positive. As a consequence he was afraid that he was infecting others, even though he has no symptoms whatsoever. LFD test was administered and as expected a negative result was returned.
There are far reaching consequences surrounding the pandemic and the messaging that has been presented concerning it. It was heartbreaking to see my son afraid and not being able to put his mind at rest. The only way to ease this fear was to swab his nose and throat, place it in a tube, drop solution in to a hole on a plastic strip and observe said strip for 30 minutes.
I am beginning to feel like we have all been guinea pigs in some twisted science experiment. I am an adult, I can make my own decisions and I am capable of doing my own research. However, I had not taken in to account the fact that children are reliant on adults to provide them with information. They are also dependent on adults to teach them life skills to enable them to ascertain any risks that may present themselves. As a consequence the impact this experiment has had on my children is undeniable and therefore the results are unsatisfactory. This experiment, in my opinion, should be chalked up as a fail and never repeated again.
As a result, I now have a child who is terrified that someone is going to die because he may at any given time have a virus.
Yes, I understand it was an emergency at the time. I understand that. Initially, I took it at face value that this was an unprecedented situation which we were facing together. Except that is a misinterpretation of the facts. We have faced pandemics in the past with similar results. The tactics used regarding any new disease are the same. Weaponise our fears of the unknown and hope that the public fall in line.
Something else that’s irritating me at the moment are celebrities and politicians imparting their “woe is me” life experiences. I believe people in the public eye should be role models. As such their life experiences should provide us, the public, with aspirations and fill us with pride. By all means share your story provided it is for a valid reason. Pity plays do not cut it with me. Unfortunately despite what you may believe there will always be somebody in the world who is suffering in a way that you cannot imagine.
And another thing, stop referring to moments in history as battering rams for your causes. In particular, with feminism. Of course, history is important but to imply that nothing has changed and you are fighting the same battles now as the suffragettes belittles what the suffragette movement actually achieved. It is called history for a reason, as Rafiki says “you can either run from it, or learn from it”. It isn’t perfect, no system, government or law will ever be perfect. It is written and made by people. We are all flawed and as a consequence whatever we create will be flawed in one way or another.
Do you know who I think is holding women back? Other women!! All of the doubt and insecurities that I have about my body and personality are all the result of criticisms and comments made by other females. Most of the men that I have encountered have always been supportive, full of encouragement and protective. That is not to say that I have not had any awful experiences with the opposite sex. I have. The question is which has impacted my self worth more? The negative interactions with men or women? Without a doubt, for me, it has been horrible women who have caused the most anxiety.
My daughter has been home because she is unwell with an ongoing problem. So what do you do when your child is ill? Personally, I try and take her to see a doctor. However, our surgery still appears to be closed or at least operating an “emergency only”appointment system. Sounds great as long as your emergency can wait for two weeks to be addressed. Apparently there are no appointments available at our local surgery to see a doctor until November. No wonder the hospitals are under so much pressure!! I wonder how much of the pressure they are experiencing is Big Bad Virus related and how much has been caused by people who need help from their GPS but need help faster than their surgery can provide.
Please do not misunderstand me, I have a huge amount of respect for NHS workers. However, I cannot help but wonder if it is fit for purpose when the GP’s seem terrified of meeting the public. I spoke with one of the doctors yesterday regarding my daughters illness and by the time the conversation was over I was seething. The long and short of the conversation was that there would be a prescription issued, I was to make the decision whether or not my daughter needed them and if she became too unwell I would have to take her to A&E to receive urgent treatment for a possible urine infection. Thanks for your help!!
I am being unfair, I know that my response is unreasonable but I cannot help it.
In my defence, I did have my first experience of one of my children vocalising that they hate me and I am the worst parent in the world shortly before the call from the doctor. So please, cut me some slack. It was traumatising…ha!! Actually it was surprisingly liberating. I have dreaded it but the words did not have the soul crushing impact that I had expected. In all honesty, it was strangely reassuring because we have all said it at some point so I must be doing something right.
All in all, it has been a frustrating time of late. I have missed a few training sessions due to injury and illness. It’s going to take a while for me to get back to where I was before. I hate that and had hoped that I could push past it but alas it was not to be. I just have to accept it is going to take some time for me to regain, what I perceive as ability. Then again, maybe I was kidding myself from the beginning and should just jack it in now before I humiliate myself further.
That is not an option. I have to try even if I am rubbish at it otherwise what was the point in signing up in the first place.
I’m sorry for the ranting nature of this post. In all seriousness though, I have had it with the way of life that is in place at the moment. I hope that it will improve soon but I am not holding my breath.
In an attempt to end this post on a positive note though, we have acquired a new pet who will be featured at some point in the future. It has been a lot of fun getting to know her and I am looking forward to telling you more about her adventures in due course. A day in the life of…. Has a nice ring to it don’t you think?
Mumma Bear Roars 